Mother's Day

This blog is waaaayyy overdue.  I apologize - with summer here and Adalynn being much more mobile, it's hard to sit down and get in the right mind set for blogging!

 This year was my 'first' Mother's Day.  Honestly, it was just another day - it didn't feel THAT special to me.  My REAL first mother's day was May 2004.  I had Zoe with me.  I remember we went to Green Mill for brunch with my Dad's side of the family.  I remember leaving her in her car seat on the floor as I ate. She was a good baby and perfectly content in there. 

 
After we ate, we went to my Dad's house.  It was my Dad, his girlfriend at the time, my grandparents, brother and aunts/uncles/cousins.  We were sitting in the living room, all of us surrounding Zoe as she was playing under her jungle gym.  My uncle asked me what I wanted for my future.  How was I supposed to answer that?  I wanted to go to college, but I also wanted to take care of Zoe.  He asked me what my dreams are - how am I supposed to answer that?  I didn't know.  I was 17.  Any normal 17 year old doesn't know what they want in life, let alone a 17 year old mother who has no idea where her life was going under the circumstances that seemed uncontrollable.  I dreamt of working in New York.  I dreamt of being a stay-at-home Mom.   I dreamt of leaving the states and living somewhere exotic with Zoe.  None of my dreams seemed realistic at the time, so I didn't know how to answer those questions.  Later that day, my brother and I went to Austin to be with our mother.  He drove my car and I was in the backseat with Zoe, feeding her in her car seat. 

 
I often wonder what my brother thought of this whole situation.  He was in college, so he had his own life and probably didn't think too much of it.  But, every Mother's Day for the past 10 years, he has gotten me a card.  That truly touches me every single year.  I know your wife reads this dear brother, so I hope she passes this on to you :)

 
I don't think it has sunk in that I will have my daughter with me every Mother's Day now.  I'm so used to celebrating Mother's Day with my Mother (and now my MIL), that I don't know HOW to celebrate me being a Mother.  To me, Mother's Day has just been another year without my babe. It's just different now and I'm trying to learn to not associate Mother's Day/parenthood with negative feelings. 

 
Anyway - thank you for reading my blog.  It feels great to get the emotions out - good and bad ones!

 
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XOXO
Adalynn hanging out!

 My beautiful bouquet of flowers from my husband for Mother's Day!